Challenged Week- need to vent!

Let me just begin by saying, I have been nicotine free for 10 days now! woot woot! I tried the patch for 2 days, and got really sick on them, so I went cold turkey! With that being said, I will say this. I would not have wanted to live with me this past week! lol. I feel so bad for Michael. I haven't been the best wife (even though technically I am not a wife, ACTUALLY technically I AM a wife, legally I am not, yeah there we go i like that!)
On top of quitting smoking, and dieting, I started pmsing, ALL within a week of each other! I don't normally admit fault very well. But this time I am more than willing to admit it! I have been SO snappy. Everything bothers me, nothing is clean enough, no one listens to me, no one helps me do anything, no one appreciates what I AM doing, blah blah blah. Not that all of that is true. But that is how I felt ALL week.
This pic was them being silly, but I am sure it is how they felt about me too LOL)

One awesome thing this week did happen! We took the girls to the Christmas wonderland at the Fair Grounds. It was awesome! The lights were beautiful! The girls got to ride a pony, feed sheep, jump in bouncy houses, see santa, roast marshmallows, and have hot chocolate! It was so much fun!!

This weekend was pretty awesome too! Friday I got my nails done, did some Christmas shopping, exchanged some jeans I had bought for a size SMALLER (7lbs down!), took girls to the mall, then we all went to dinner! Score! Saturday was Abigail's party with her cheerleaders at Stars and Strikes. My mom kept M&M so Michael, Me, and Aaliyah could go with her. It was alot of fun, and they both had a blast!

Then the girls spent the night at my Moms fo some much needed Nana time! Michael and I went ahead and took on grocery shopping for Thanksgiving. Seeing that I am going to be SUPER busy this week, I had no idea when I would be able to shop! I am so glad it is over with now. $102.53 on nothing but stuff for Turkey day! Jeeezus. And I still had to by groceries for the rest of the normal week too! Next week will ALL be leftovers! lol

This week is going to be such a challenge. I hope I can hold up, without losing my mind or becoming 'bitchy' again. To start with, while at the nail shop on Friday I learned that my children don't have school AT ALL this week. Not the traditional off Wed, Thurs and Fri for Thanksgiving. This week they get the WHOLE week off. Which is all good and gravy for them, BUT I made my work schedule for Mon-Wed!! And as you probably know, Michael works nights. He doesn't get home until sometimes 4-5am. Then on days I work he gets up with babies all day when girls are in school. Well now he is going to have all 4 home everyday! Eeeeks!
I have worked out for the big girls to spend 1 day with my aunt, and 1 day with a friend. But that still means alot more running around for me!
On top of ALL of that. We decided to cook Thanksgiving dinner this year at our home! Which I am really excited about! I have a great menu planned! But I am a little concerned about having everything ready on time to eat! Seeing that I am working Mon-Wed, plus Wed night, I am not going to have much time to do any pre-cooking. AND I am completely OCD about my house being spotless when people are coming over. So I HOPE everyone KEEPS it clean during the week. I am not going to have time to clean the whole house AGAIN. But I have faith in myself. I can do this =o) As long as the food is served and the family is happy, I will be happy!!
We are having some of Michael's family over so I will be feeding 5-6 adults and 8 kids. Here is my menu- Tell me if this sounds yummy to you! =o)

Meat:
Fried 20lb Turkey (Michael's job)
Baked Hens

Sides: (all completely HOMEMADE, by me!)
Mashed Potatoes
Gravy
Stuffing
Dressing
Collards
Mac&Cheese
Cranberry Sauce (ok-that is canned)
Dinner rolls

Desserts:
Pumpkin Pie
Sweet Potato Pie
Aut-YUM Leaves (for kids)

So tonight, I am going to do as much laundry as I can, finish up cleaning as much as I can, then BREATHE, drink a cup of cider (BTW, warm apple cider is my new addiction.. it's much tastier than a cigarette!) and get ready for a crazy, fun-filled, family-filled WEEK ahead!

I hope everyone of you have a great week, and a fabulous Thanksgiving =o)

This year I am thankful for such an amazing family, who make me smile daily!!


I had to add this adorable picture of Maggie snoozing away. Lol. What a peaceful life babies have. =o) I am so thankful to have 4 beautiful precious angels I call daughters!

26th birthday, and start of NEW Megan!

So, November 8th, I celebrated, kind of celebrated my 26th birthday. This year I already has mixed feelings about my birthday, and the day of proved me right. TWENTY-SIX.. seems so close to 30!! I knew it was going to be the start of the not so young feeling years, and I was right!
The night before, at midnight. I went outside and smoked a cigarette. yeah yeah yeah I know!! Not a smart thing to be doing. And after the 2nd puff I wanted to cry! I have NO idea why. But this birthday also started the beginning of change for me. I guess that alone is a little depressing. (Explanation coming)
SO anyway. I had to work the day of my birthday. Work was surprisingly EXTRA awesome. I made almost $30 more than normal. Plus I got to do a wine tasting, take a shot, and drink a glass of wine before going home, SCORE! lol.
When I got home, my mom had made me a cake and it was at my house! We were going out to dinner, so we did gifts and cake with the kids first before they had to go to bed. Michael had taken the girls shopping for me. They decided they wanted to get me a red picture frame, and put a picture of "my babies" in it. So he went and had a collage made with a picture of him, Abby, Lele, Maggie, Madison, and Newman! It is super cute!! He got me a pretty candle holder that hangs on the wall, and money to go shopping for boots, and jeans that I desperately needed! So I was very proud of them all, they know what mommy likes!
My mom and sis came over (to watch girls while we went to dinner) My sis got me a beautiful statue of two sisters, with the phrase "Sisters by chance, Friends by choice!" Love it! It is SO TRUE! My momma got me the first box of Nicotine patches (will explain in a minute) some yummy bath wash and lotion, and this awesome dvd that turns your tv into a fireplace! (She also chipped in for me getting my hair cut and colored the day before!)
Michael took me to Papadeax! I love that place, dinner was delicious, service was kind of sucky, but still, it was very nice, and delicious!!
SO yeah again, about the change thing. I have had my 'secret' addiction, forever! Smoking. I know it is SO bad, and nasty. But honestly I had been smoking off and on since I was like 16. I was supposed to have quit when I was 25, but that didn't last very long. All my friends smoke, so I was always tempted when I was with them. my strength gave in, and before long I was still smoking at least 1-2 a day. Honestly it was my getaway. When I got annoyed, I smoked, bored, I smoked, drove in car (without kids) I smoked. At night when all the kids went to sleep, first thing I did was smoke a cig! Even though I didn't even enjoy it anymore, I just needed that everyday. My body depended on it. I know it is probably ALL in my head, BUT if I didn't have that ONE a day, I turn into a total bitch. BUT me and myself had a little talk. I decided this year, being 26, it was time to kick the habit completely, lose 30lbs, get a new hair style (check!) and work on me a little. Since having the twins, my life has pretty much been consumed of nothing but kids kids kids, michael michael michael, house work x10, and everything else. I was always put on a back burner. And quite frankly, even though I have never been happier in life, I was not happy with myself. After losing my first 6lbs, I realized I can do anything I put my mind to and so I AM! I have 4 beautiful girls to live for, and let's be honest, smoking for almost 10 years, is nothing but fatal. I was once told that in order for my lungs to start healing from the damage done, I needed to be QUIT for a year, for every year I smoked. THEN once you hit 40 your chances of issues, and cancers jumps up in percentages. SO being 26, I need a good 10 years to heal my lungs up, to have 4 extra years before 40! That to me is reason enough to kick the habit.
So I have been procrastinating wearing the patch. Today is actually the first day I put in on. And honestly, I HATE IT. It leaves a horrible taste in my mouth, my eyes feel heavy, my head feels spinny. Almost as if I had just smoked a joint, or had 4 shots! 10 yrs ago I would love this feeling, nowadays I DO NOT! BUT I am going to stay strong and get through it. I don't want to be a smoker. I don't like setting an example that like to my children. And I am just ready to say goodbye to it for good! But I know this is going to be the hardest thing I have ever done! I am already feeling the stress of it. If I can get through a solid week, I think I will be OK. But as of right now, this sucks so bad! Michael is not a smoker, and hates me smoking, so he is a good support team to have at home. Now if I can just talk all my girl friends into quitting too, I will be good! lol
So while I was not ready to turn 26, I am ready to get back in shape, get healthier, and move on to the new me! So when 30 does come around, I will personally already be where I need to be, physically anyway!

(sorry no pics this time!)

Halloween FUN!

This past weekend was excellent!!
It started Saturday. We had a football game @noon in Dacula. Poor Black Knights got beat by ONE point. Therefore, NO more football =o( Actually who am I kidding :) :) :) :) I am SO looking forward to having my Saturdays free!! it's been rough getting up early and getting 6 people ready EVERY Saturday morning for the last 3 months! Even though I am happy about it, it was still sad knowing that was the last game for this year, UNTIL next year! (When I will have TWO cheerleaders, and TWO football games every Saturday, and TWO TWO year olds!! WOO HOOooo)<-total sarcasm on that one BTW!


















SO ANYWAY- After the game I took girls to the Fall Festival in downtown Lawrenceville. Michael took the babies home for a nap. I knew they would be TOO sleepy to skip naptime! Plus there isn't a whole lot to do for babies who can't walk!

Yeah it was a total rip off, and a waste of 20 minutes to walk around it. Actually not a TOTAL waste, I got some coupons and FREE samples. But as far as the kids go, nothing fun to do but jump in jumpy house for 10 mins. SO we ditched it, and drove a little further down the road to The Avenues festival. Much better!! They had a marshmellow roasting station, face painting (which we didn't get to do),pony rides, necklace making, digging for gold, ringing a rope over horse head, balloon making, lots of candy, GOOD coupons and MORE! The girls enjoyed it MUCH better than the 1st stop. Plus we stopped by Gary's Bistro (my job) and said hello to a few folks! It was a success!

Saturday night we were thinking about taking the girls to go trick or treating at the mall, but then I decided they will get plent on Halloween night, and I would rather stay home and get some stuff done. We ended up grilling out som bbq chicken legs, frying some wings, made homemade mac&chs, and green beans!! It was nice making a big dinner for everyone! Since I have been working during the week, and Michael goes to work soon after I get off, it has been a while that we have all been home for a big dinner together! I highly enjoyed the time with family!I love these guys!! Well my one guy and four gals!

SO HALLOWEEN was Sunday! The girls were so excited all day, they painted their baby pumpkins, again, then decided to carve them, and ended up just ripping them open and playing with the guts! Mean while I made a big brunch, pumpkin pancakes! I cut the butter into triangle shapes for the eyes,and used syrup for the mouth! They were super cute and delish, and NO didn't take a picture!! (crap!) Didn't think about it at the time =o(

Unfortunately Michael had to work Sunday night, so he couldn't do halloween fun with us, but he was there in spirit! And I got lots of pics for him!! We started getting into gear about 6pm. Abigail was a punk rockstar! Aaliyah was an Angel! Maggie and Madison were baby lions!!




I got a GREAT deal on costumes. Babies lions costumes came from Sam's, for $9. Aaliyah's angel costume came from Ebay $2 + $5 ship= $7! And Abby put together her costume with her clothes she already had. I bought her red/glitter haispray, black lipstick and black nail polish, and red gloves=$8! SCORE. =o) Kids were VERY happy with their costumes, so Mommy was too!

I couldn't believe how awesome kids did! Babies sat quetly in their stroller the WHOLE time! Never moved, cried or nothing! lol I thought they were going to fall asleep, but didn't. They were just trying to figure out what the heck was going on! Big girls were awesome too! No one got lost, no one fell and got hurt, everyone got TONS of candy!



Total the night was WIN WIN WIN!!

So NOW that Halloween is over, next up MY BIRTHDAY! November 8th! 1 week and counting! Then Thanksgiving (going to North Carolina to be with Michael's family!) and then Christmas!

I am actually Christmas shopping for the first time tomorrow! Woo Hoo!!

Hope everyone else had a AWESOME weekend like we did! Family time is the best time!